almost

almost a full moon tonight
almost called to see if you saw it
almost a friendship
but not quite
kind of uneasy
so I dialed, then stopped
then dialed again
but shut off the phone

so instead of calling you
I got out the guitar
and the binoculars

I sat outside
in the director's chair
played some songs
redirecting my fear
while the moon rose
along with a planet

then through the binoculars
I saw Lyra
with its double binary

and the stars were really there
not just almost

and I hoped you'd find
something in me to almost like
or better yet something to really love