Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Now Playing! One night only!

The Perseid meteor showers were last Sunday night. We woke up and went out to try to see them. We sat there for a few minutes staring up at the sky. It was beautiful. Even though we weren't away from the city as the pro's advised for best viewing, it was pretty dark and we were confident we'd see some.

Sure enough, a few minutes into the watching, I saw a shooting star. Then Art saw one. Then I saw another and Art saw two more. But after that – nothing!

We started to get anxious as these really weird clouds started rolling in. We lamented; "Oh great! We won't get to see the meteor showers because it's getting so cloudy. We might as well go in." We started gathering up our stuff and began to head for the house.

As we walked toward the door, we kept looking up, trying to catch one or two more falling stars before calling it a night. But as we gazed up at the sky we both began to realize that even though the clouds weren’t why we were out there, they actually looked quite amazing!

We decided to go back, sit down, relax, and watched these cotton candy clouds stretch over the expanse of the night sky. They were a thin mesh and you could still kind of see the stars through them as they brightened the sky. Kind of like the opposite of a shadow. Their configurations were joyfully amusing and silently awe inspiring.

Because we were so focused on what we were expecting to see, we both realized that we had almost missed out on something quite alarmingly beautiful. We could have easily meandered back into the house, disappointed that the clouds rolled in keeping us from seeing the meteor showers, and sadly crawled into bed, bereft about what we might’ve seen. But then we would have missed the suspended constellations of water crystals floating quietly overhead, stretching in and out of whimsy and abstraction. Never to be seen again!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

We'll meet again

My friend Dorothy died today. It was expected. She had stage-3 lung cancer. The treatments were too much for her. So she ended them and decided to die with the dignity and grace in which she lived her life.

She entered hospice a little over a week ago. So many friends came to see her there that it actually overwhelmed her daughter. I managed to go there once to visit and the next day to take her a painting I did of some holly hocks. She couldn’t have real flowers because they affected her breathing. She was happy to get the painting, I didn’t stay long, but I told her that I loved her, and she said she would see me soon.

I stayed away these last few days trying not to interfere with the family’s time to be alone with her. But I craved her company. I will miss her. Even though she was probably almost 30 years my senior, she was a kindred spirit. I used to visit her in her little house and just chat and joke and tell her about all my misbegotten exploits. She had a great laugh.

She was the type that got that little mischievous twinkle in her eyes and I knew she understood the crazy point I was trying to convey. She’d nod and then say something to make me laugh. I only knew Dorothy a short time, but she totally stole my heart. When I gave her the flower painting she said; “I wish we’d have met sooner.” I agree Dorothy, I agree.

But then, how many people have we known for twenty, even thirty years, and we only speak to them randomly and sporadically at best. Sometimes they reach out from the past and blast our present with a flush of love so full it’s a little unsettling, but no less profound. So I think whether it is a year or thirty that we've known someone, when they’re a true kindred spirit, the connection is unbreakable. No matter how much time goes by, it’s there — even death can’t make it fade.

That’s the weird thing — it doesn’t change. It doesn’t lessen in intensity, it buzzes like a cicada on a humid fall evening. Undiminished, the love just persists. And even though it is extremely painful, I think I prefer the pain of love and chasm of loss to the alternative. And I wish, with all my heart, that I am able to say those three precious words to all those who make my life complete, fracture it irreparably, and leave it for other realms — either expectedly or in a mercilessly abrupt way.

Au revoir Dorothy; we'll meet again.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Drw4aZhdT8
(Vera Lynn singing; We'll meet again on YouTube)

Vera Lynn in the 40's