between
my thumb and
index
fingers
I hold
yours
some
new scars
since
the last time
but still
mostly
the same
familiar
and beautiful
I kiss
them
they
express
love
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
shovelling
across
the concrete
scraping
steel blade
pushes
frozen
dust of
water vapor
crystal
flakes
blowing
out of the north
bundled
aching
three more
inches
steam
expelled
from lips
nose
drips
shovel
the
drive
the concrete
scraping
steel blade
pushes
frozen
dust of
water vapor
crystal
flakes
blowing
out of the north
bundled
aching
three more
inches
steam
expelled
from lips
nose
drips
shovel
the
drive
Saturday, December 27, 2008
depression
i used to
try to save
every single
morsel
i was afraid
of losing
it all
if i lost
the tiniest
crumb
just like
my mother
saved her
straws and napkins
from the
restaurant
because
she learned
in the depression
how hard things
could be
to come by
i used
to gather up
the remnants
and reminisce
somehow knowing
how
difficult
it would be
to come by
happiness again
some day
but i forgot
to gather
up the present
absent
losing it all
while trying to
gather up
and save
try to save
every single
morsel
i was afraid
of losing
it all
if i lost
the tiniest
crumb
just like
my mother
saved her
straws and napkins
from the
restaurant
because
she learned
in the depression
how hard things
could be
to come by
i used
to gather up
the remnants
and reminisce
somehow knowing
how
difficult
it would be
to come by
happiness again
some day
but i forgot
to gather
up the present
absent
losing it all
while trying to
gather up
and save
a little jazz
from far away
a horn
is flowing
toward my
senses
a little bass
places
the rhythm
in my foot
and the brushes
kiss the snare
just about there
my nostrils flare
and I take a sniff
of blackness
warm in cup
between my years
they coalesce
and I emerge
in tune
a horn
is flowing
toward my
senses
a little bass
places
the rhythm
in my foot
and the brushes
kiss the snare
just about there
my nostrils flare
and I take a sniff
of blackness
warm in cup
between my years
they coalesce
and I emerge
in tune
broken lady
hi my name is
broken lady
bent
and
crumpled
rumpled
up
with life
dropped
from
high
altitudes
exploding
across
the pavement
in every
direction
from
the point
of impact
betrayed
by time
and illusions
delusions
and
false
conclusions
beaten
by the
bricks
of each
and every
bad
decision
happy
to make
your acquaintance
but
please
don't shake
my hand
don't touch
me
don't
come near
me
I am broken
and you
might
get cut
broken lady
bent
and
crumpled
rumpled
up
with life
dropped
from
high
altitudes
exploding
across
the pavement
in every
direction
from
the point
of impact
betrayed
by time
and illusions
delusions
and
false
conclusions
beaten
by the
bricks
of each
and every
bad
decision
happy
to make
your acquaintance
but
please
don't shake
my hand
don't touch
me
don't
come near
me
I am broken
and you
might
get cut
cover
i want to knit
you a blanket
of the warmest
fiber
hand spun
on my very own
loom
harvested
from my
hemp
and my
flax
and my
sheep
i want
to dye
the fiber
the richest
colors
from the
ripest
fruit
and the
driest
root
i want
to tie
each knot
and seal
it with a tear
to keep you
dry
and safe
from fear
i want
to take
that blanket
and wrap
you up
keep you warm
safe from harm
i want to
knit you a blanket
adorned
with
a landscape
of love
fertile earth below
shining heavens above
i want to
cover every inch
i want to
cover every thing
i want to
keep you warm
keep you
safe from harm
you a blanket
of the warmest
fiber
hand spun
on my very own
loom
harvested
from my
hemp
and my
flax
and my
sheep
i want
to dye
the fiber
the richest
colors
from the
ripest
fruit
and the
driest
root
i want
to tie
each knot
and seal
it with a tear
to keep you
dry
and safe
from fear
i want
to take
that blanket
and wrap
you up
keep you warm
safe from harm
i want to
knit you a blanket
adorned
with
a landscape
of love
fertile earth below
shining heavens above
i want to
cover every inch
i want to
cover every thing
i want to
keep you warm
keep you
safe from harm
image
there it was
a 4 x 5
with all the
reds faded
you smiling
on the beach
your eyes
laughing
a future
was
dancing
in the wings
but never
took the
stage
because
of rage
we never
turned the
page
a 4 x 5
with all the
reds faded
you smiling
on the beach
your eyes
laughing
a future
was
dancing
in the wings
but never
took the
stage
because
of rage
we never
turned the
page
like misery
stone
inside
heart
weight
transfered
pride
a kiss
a wish
a feather
we could be
together
but we
like misery
inside
heart
weight
transfered
pride
a kiss
a wish
a feather
we could be
together
but we
like misery
too late?
is it too late
to love you?
am I too far gone?
is it too late
to love you?
have you moved on?
every tree speaks your name
with the rustling of the leaves
the wind is its breath
every tall grass prairie
waves me on toward you
blazing gold
in autumnal splendor
it is you I remember
I'm blanketed in compost
warm and steaming in the frost
of late fall, winter coming
you're far gone
but the guitar imitates
your timber and your pitch
I turn away
only to see the ocean
and the waves
of the tides pull
the memories
of warm nights
and the churning
quell this yearning
have mercy
what is contentment?
leave me in peace.
stop the ghosts from beckoning
let the waves wash over
these memories
and erase them
from my shores
a blank and peaceful
beach
I can rest upon
once more
to love you?
am I too far gone?
is it too late
to love you?
have you moved on?
every tree speaks your name
with the rustling of the leaves
the wind is its breath
every tall grass prairie
waves me on toward you
blazing gold
in autumnal splendor
it is you I remember
I'm blanketed in compost
warm and steaming in the frost
of late fall, winter coming
you're far gone
but the guitar imitates
your timber and your pitch
I turn away
only to see the ocean
and the waves
of the tides pull
the memories
of warm nights
and the churning
quell this yearning
have mercy
what is contentment?
leave me in peace.
stop the ghosts from beckoning
let the waves wash over
these memories
and erase them
from my shores
a blank and peaceful
beach
I can rest upon
once more
Friday, December 26, 2008
stone
hard
around
the
edges
rolling
and
pushed
by time
resting
against
a multitude
begun
until
again
kicked
blown
polished
by the wind
around
the
edges
rolling
and
pushed
by time
resting
against
a multitude
begun
until
again
kicked
blown
polished
by the wind
broken no more
in so deep
it hurts
it's going
to be
a long time
coming
until
we can
walk again
in daylight
I can't wait
to hold
your
hands
and show
my friends
my
beloved
will we be
too old
by then?
no
no
we
can't
I'll
stay timeless
in my
cocoon
with
you
wrapped
in
warmth
and
smiles
effortless
broken
no more
it hurts
it's going
to be
a long time
coming
until
we can
walk again
in daylight
I can't wait
to hold
your
hands
and show
my friends
my
beloved
will we be
too old
by then?
no
no
we
can't
I'll
stay timeless
in my
cocoon
with
you
wrapped
in
warmth
and
smiles
effortless
broken
no more
lay down
past
the pause
that interrupts
a fragile
balance
of tangling
beside
the stream
inside
a dream
we recline
together
your breath
brushes
my cheek
your touch
whispers
of love
I am bent
down
with
emotion
my eyes
shut
I shutter
you are
there
and have
the essence
I need
to survive
I writhe
with desire
and ache
against
the hope
of our bed
becoming
a garden
where
love
can grow
the pause
that interrupts
a fragile
balance
of tangling
beside
the stream
inside
a dream
we recline
together
your breath
brushes
my cheek
your touch
whispers
of love
I am bent
down
with
emotion
my eyes
shut
I shutter
you are
there
and have
the essence
I need
to survive
I writhe
with desire
and ache
against
the hope
of our bed
becoming
a garden
where
love
can grow
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
somehow entrenched
give the universe the finger
that's right
point it right at the heart of god
nothing works out
it all falls apart
you and I are not different
from chaos
itself
between us
individuality blurs
we become
each others pain
push and pull
refrain
every kiss
every soft touch
is a rush of joy
but a fearful
cut widens
with the depth
of feeling
that fear grows
and grows
and I just want to settle!
I just want to settle!
but I can settle
for no one but you.
how hard
it is to feel you
from way over here
way over
here
that's right
point it right at the heart of god
nothing works out
it all falls apart
you and I are not different
from chaos
itself
between us
individuality blurs
we become
each others pain
push and pull
refrain
every kiss
every soft touch
is a rush of joy
but a fearful
cut widens
with the depth
of feeling
that fear grows
and grows
and I just want to settle!
I just want to settle!
but I can settle
for no one but you.
how hard
it is to feel you
from way over here
way over
here
Saturday, December 13, 2008
compassion
dew bejeweled grass
amber sunset tinted blades
sharper beams refracted
a breath of shade
relief from burning rays
and sizzling pavement
nest of a warm blanket
insulating the chill
comfort and cradle
amber sunset tinted blades
sharper beams refracted
a breath of shade
relief from burning rays
and sizzling pavement
nest of a warm blanket
insulating the chill
comfort and cradle
pushing the edge
knife to skin
push edge through
red pours life
essence streams
cold fingertips touch
across the abyss
smell
the acrid acid
of hell
push edge through
red pours life
essence streams
cold fingertips touch
across the abyss
smell
the acrid acid
of hell
states of matter
a solid
it happens
my
heart
beats
a liquid
my blood
pulses
and
I feel
gaseous
buoyant
recumbent
I turn
to plasma
and suffer
you
it happens
my
heart
beats
a liquid
my blood
pulses
and
I feel
gaseous
buoyant
recumbent
I turn
to plasma
and suffer
you
you exist
most definitely
you exist
and there
the molecules
resist
my chemistry
my interaction
with you
I reach
a point
where I change
my state
from
a solid
to a liquid
to a gas
and then
to some quantum
basis
that
begs
for my
participation
but doesn't
wait for my
permission
I love you
what is that?
what is that?
that that sets
me on my side?
that that takes
me in its wake,
its undertow
and drowns
my sensibilities
every
inch of
my essence
is immersed
I have
no breath
of my own
I can't own
the air
it's all
on loan
from
the universe
for a time
and you too
are like my heart
or any other organ
that I cannot
live without
oh this dysfunction!
I love you
and I don't know
what it means
it means
nothing
without action
without touch
without interaction
so I love
an illusion
a dark
ethereal
body
distant
nondescript
produced
by some
chemical
trick in my head
my brain
electrons again
where are you?
I miss you.
I love you.
do you
really exist?
if so
then...
where are you?
you exist
and there
the molecules
resist
my chemistry
my interaction
with you
I reach
a point
where I change
my state
from
a solid
to a liquid
to a gas
and then
to some quantum
basis
that
begs
for my
participation
but doesn't
wait for my
permission
I love you
what is that?
what is that?
that that sets
me on my side?
that that takes
me in its wake,
its undertow
and drowns
my sensibilities
every
inch of
my essence
is immersed
I have
no breath
of my own
I can't own
the air
it's all
on loan
from
the universe
for a time
and you too
are like my heart
or any other organ
that I cannot
live without
oh this dysfunction!
I love you
and I don't know
what it means
it means
nothing
without action
without touch
without interaction
so I love
an illusion
a dark
ethereal
body
distant
nondescript
produced
by some
chemical
trick in my head
my brain
electrons again
where are you?
I miss you.
I love you.
do you
really exist?
if so
then...
where are you?
et
extra
terrestrial
magnetic fields
swaying
in the moonlight
beyond
our atmosphere
but exacting
perturbations
that could
only
belong
to
mysteries
my flesh
is torn
and stretched
and
will someday
cease
its breath
then I will
fly
to see
just what
is there
within
that
orbit
that
rest
terrestrial
magnetic fields
swaying
in the moonlight
beyond
our atmosphere
but exacting
perturbations
that could
only
belong
to
mysteries
my flesh
is torn
and stretched
and
will someday
cease
its breath
then I will
fly
to see
just what
is there
within
that
orbit
that
rest
after all
in the morning
moon
the light
reflected
is abundant
and quite
enough
to illuminate
a reality
I prefer
but day
will come
and the sun
will shine
then I will
see
exactly
what it is
I defy
there
across the
road
your disinterest
waves
in the wind
and the crows
alight
upon
the
rhythm
of the
moving
stems
you
will
never
return
I
am
all
alone
moon
the light
reflected
is abundant
and quite
enough
to illuminate
a reality
I prefer
but day
will come
and the sun
will shine
then I will
see
exactly
what it is
I defy
there
across the
road
your disinterest
waves
in the wind
and the crows
alight
upon
the
rhythm
of the
moving
stems
you
will
never
return
I
am
all
alone
Friday, December 12, 2008
come
my
body
pulses
in accord
with
your
touch
it remembers
the cosmic
life form
that exhaled
and it
returned
as it came
and remained
but had
gone
nowhere
and
everywhere
as a wind
bury your
head
in the
ample
bosom
of a woman
that bends
to your
every breath
bury
yourself
in my thighs
in my chest
grab
my waist
touch my
face
kiss
my
mouth
take
my
sighs
come
body
pulses
in accord
with
your
touch
it remembers
the cosmic
life form
that exhaled
and it
returned
as it came
and remained
but had
gone
nowhere
and
everywhere
as a wind
bury your
head
in the
ample
bosom
of a woman
that bends
to your
every breath
bury
yourself
in my thighs
in my chest
grab
my waist
touch my
face
kiss
my
mouth
take
my
sighs
come
full moon
eyes wide
with nothing
inside
longing
for a
touch
even
just a
brush
crush
me
with
love
crush
me
with
that
syrup
that
coats
my throat
that
flavors
everything
with sweet
flavors
that make
me come
into being
bring me
to life
bright
like that
moon
in
the
cold
December
night
with nothing
inside
longing
for a
touch
even
just a
brush
crush
me
with
love
crush
me
with
that
syrup
that
coats
my throat
that
flavors
everything
with sweet
flavors
that make
me come
into being
bring me
to life
bright
like that
moon
in
the
cold
December
night
craving
aching belly
twists
wrenching
the last
ounce
of resistance
coiling within
uncoiling
and
turning
the rock
over
all the
creatures
run for
cover
all the
creatures
living
there
run
to you
twists
wrenching
the last
ounce
of resistance
coiling within
uncoiling
and
turning
the rock
over
all the
creatures
run for
cover
all the
creatures
living
there
run
to you
state of being
all but taken up
fringe hangs
from my face
I have dog-eared
marred
stones
dropping
sending
out
waves
my book
is left
open
my pages
torn
I want
you to
read me
retrieve
me
write your
dedication
on my
sheets
wear
the words
in your
ears
and
heart
and
beat
me
beat
me
until
I submit
fringe hangs
from my face
I have dog-eared
marred
stones
dropping
sending
out
waves
my book
is left
open
my pages
torn
I want
you to
read me
retrieve
me
write your
dedication
on my
sheets
wear
the words
in your
ears
and
heart
and
beat
me
beat
me
until
I submit
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
cataclysm (K-T event)
impact crater
depressed
thrown into
catastrophic
flux
atmospheric
compression
ash
obscures
vision
diaplectic
glass
spatters
burning
maw
depressed
thrown into
catastrophic
flux
atmospheric
compression
ash
obscures
vision
diaplectic
glass
spatters
burning
maw
Monday, December 1, 2008
fire
For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."
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